Brennan Manning always gets to the bottom of it all... The quote which follows spoke volumes to me. As I'm writing my "Theology of Ministry Leadership" I just keep coming back to the realization that I have so much to learn and feel so incredibly inadequate for the task. And I know that's a good place to be.
So many times I know I make choices, as a leader or a ministry "worker bee," based on what other people would think. So many times I know there is a better choice that would honor God and be a loving response to the people around me. Sometimes... I get it right.
Manning reminds me why it is so easy to get caught in the wrong mindset and response.
It is one thing to feel loved by God when our life is together and all our support systems are in place. Then self-acceptance is easy.
...But what happens when life falls through the cracks? What happens when we sin and fail, when our dreams shatter, when our investments crash, when we are regarded with suspicion? What happens when we come face to face with the human condition?
When I relapsed, I had two options: yield once again to guilt, fear, and depression: or rush into the arms of my Heavenly Father - choose to live as a victim of my disease; or choose to trust in Abba's immutable love.Brennan Manning: Abba's Child: The Cry of the Heart for Intimate Belonging