Explaining the unexplainable...

I've tried to write a couple of blog posts and deleted them. Somehow I can't get into words the deeper things I'm pondering.

Part of it is the nature of being a little more "public" a person than I used to be. That's the prideful part of me getting in the way... ("What will they think if I admit that I struggle with...??")

Yeah right. I am making myself out to be much more important than I am. I mean, President Obama asked me to give that inaugural prayer and I had to decline because of my classes. RIiiiiiight.

No. That's not it.

It's a process of wanting to articulate what I'm pondering as fairly and as objectively as one can when the writing is all reflective. And it's a process of self-editing because in the rare moment when I write out of objectivity, I don't want to backhand blast people because I personally think they are idiots. In a holy and pastoral sort of post, of course.

Like every student and pastor I know, there's questions that don't get answered quickly...

• the hows and whys of things...
• the meanings behind words and phrases...
• the simple pain that comes into the world...
• the lack of feeling and/or logic in other human beings...
• the raw exhaustion of wondering why the ???? stuff keeps happening...

In mulling over systematics this morning, I realized part of the problem I've been facing. If I really and truly put it into words, will it be believable? And will anyone besides me find it makes sense?

Or will it just be another test of the Emergency Yodeling Button?
Whoosh.
That's it.

Boy, I'm glad I got that figured out.

Deb

P.S. The button is at Archie McPhee -- just in case you need one, too.